What makes me vulnerable? In the face of adversity and rejection and when things dont go my way!
Although i know a little bit of imperfection can do no harm and cannot be washed off, i'm desperately seeking the ideal. Knowing and accepting the fact that people may claim to know me but only i know who me is. what makes me ashamed of my words or my true spirit, is it because i'm trying too hard to please? Maybe more than necessary. Is it the fear of losing? Of losing whats not there? Of losing what little is left? Questioning the righteous and fearing god whilst not completely believing in them. Is it cuz i see myself in both black and white, right and wrong? Being myself and not liking the outcome, not being myself and still not liking the outcome, a self annointed tag of a loner, is this what makes me, the real me, as i was intended to be?
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too personalish types to comment...
but as confusing as one can get, probably as much as me :)
i never fight with such a question anymore...confuses me even more
Answer to all this. A strong sense of ego and excessive expectations/desire is the reason.
Start looking at yourself objectively and not subjectively. The answers to many of these questions will dawn upon you
@ muthu - thanks..yeah i know i'm vain and self centred, luckily its not to the point of no return. I have my head on my shoulders.
And hey i wanted to ask u, how come u end up making so much sense most of the time? ;)
@ desh - i wanted to say somethin really clever. Ha ;) well, the truth is, its easy for me to blurt out to someone/thing that i dont know very well and yet feel a good vibe with. And i'm starting to like my mangy comp, more and more everyday, even to my surprise.
Btw, cool blog u got! :)
mayb for us,
"confusion gives us a high", is applicable :)
whts a mangy comp btw???
thnks for th blog, keep visiting :) and keep getting the much needed vibes :)
Spandana, do i make sense always. You are the first to tell me this. I am known for my all-time blabbering.
no cupcakes getting dished out nwdays??
@ benkiman : Well, i dunno if u call it blabbering too. A lot of the times , i feel like i need a conversation like that which is beyond books and clothes and men. Lets meet sometime, if u're in bangalore. Hope my idea of u doesnt change ;)
@ desh : I've either been really busy or tired or preoccupied to let the words flow. For now its just this. Ha Ha :) Tata!
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