Counting down the days

Doubt, sarcasm, guilt, constant ridicule and manic depression. Its not her problem, but she's still trying to help. I wouldnt say she's saving lives but atleast she's not lettin anyone die! She doesnt want to make this about herself, because its not. Its much bigger, more insane, too intense, quite serious and quite trivial at the same time.

She cannot make it go away, its not in her hands. Just when it seems like it is or she starts to believe it is, things slip away. She never gives up on people, people she loves. Adjustments, compromises, sacrifices are an everyday occurrence, they're not exactly selfless at times, cuz she knows and expects something good to come out of it, sometimes. She has patience too, but she's losing grey matter, failing to cope up. She's not helpless, not asking for help. But she wouldnt decline it if someone offers it. She's not exactly living the way she wants to, hoped to or dreamt of. But she's not unhappy.

This is not autobiographical.