Pieces of me..

These are bits of an sms conversation i had with a friend, one night..

"hey somethin went thru my mind two days ago.For the first time, I'm somehow comfortable with everything.
Remember the time, you were tellin me you felt like bein with someone..and I said, I do too..Well, it kinda sunk in that I cant be me all the time with everyone ,except me.I'm so gonna dream about someone and miss em but I'm so so so okay with them not being here.them or anyone else!

It feels great! I'm still self absorbed, probably more than before, if you think about it. But, no more having the lowest of lows cuz of not having a dream come true...I think I'm beginning to see and accept how life works and be contented with it..Maybe, happy even!"

"ok, so if you mean that I'm not gonna try harder cuz i just start accepting things the way they are,well...I didnt say I'll stop dreaming and running after my dreams.Just that i'll stop sulking..Less than usual.

I dont know if this is just a phase or I've finally learnt to detach myself from some things, making predictions come true.I'm just finally ok with not having anyone around .It doesnt mean I wont ever feel like it, but I know now, more so than before, that life is because of the people around you, but also because of how you are when you're with em..If its not goin well, I'd rather be alone than be on a lookout all the time!"

But, it doesnt mean I'm being someone else now, just to be able to fit in...i'm myself with everyone but the realisation takes it a notch higher! :)