tainted

here's the beginning of the end...
the end of mediocrity that i pushed myself into,
the end of pessimism that i got sucked into...
the end of thirst and league of meaninglessness...

i'm a million different thoughts woven together,
rediscovering that i'm alien,unfocussed and trivial...
footprints that match mine are more than a billion...

searching for my page in history has made me richer in pain,
my sins,known and unknown are being washed down by the unbiased rain...
life has moved at snail's pace,
but i'm struggling to catch up with this "nowhere headed" race...

no room

stuck and unwilling to get out,
infinity seems too short to look for...
out of skin and bones and into shadows,
fuller and complete maketh the night...
sunshine is now welcome only thru blinds..
a living masked by laughter..
petals of nostalgia seem mortal..
day moves on to day,
ease coming in perpetual wait...